i really wish i could make up my mind and jus stick with it!
but if i was able to do that then i really wouldnt be me but oh well my life and MY MISTAKES to make and i really think that i need to try and be on my own otherwise ill forever be stuck in my parents house, with loads of regret
so if decided that i have to start doing things for me and not anyone else;
-i want to be a photographer
-i want to travel the world
-i wanna come home and live on the chathams
-im tired of being told what is going to happen to me i want to take that fall on my own so that im able to get my own shit sorted
-& most of all i want to show people that i am able to do anything that i put my mind to
Monday, September 5, 2011
Sunday, July 31, 2011
things, people & life have changed
So next year I was on the move back to New Zealand to go flatting with my really good mate heids, but things seem to have taken a very big turn on me! im one of thoughs people who can not really make up their mind; and its the worst thing someone can have, one moment im goin home next im not then im on a flight to China!
anyways my parents have been telling me about reality; and to be really honest im scared of it. what if i fail? what if i dissapoint?
im scared that i will head back home & things are not like i planned. and also i have bugger all money saved and there is no excuse for that as i get paid well and have nothing to spend it on & what makes it worst is my parents pay for everything :S
- so for now the idea is to stay in the land of money & get myself set up soo that i can do anything i wish with my life.
- i also feel like a really crappy friend for not keeping to my word but how do you tell someone that your just not ready to move away from everybody you love.
NEXT:
i woke up saturday morning to the most worst txt; my closest kuszhin Chancie had been put in hospital with a inflamed heart & was haveing difficulty breathing!!! its the worst thing when your miles away, chancie is like my other half; in a soul connection soo that really put a grey cloud on my mood, but the up news is if he wants he can go to the canterbury bulldogs in sydney; in the start of november if he wants!!!!!! so had a long talk to him about that :) & if he does ill be goin to sydney at least once every two months which is sooo exciting! until i found out that i will be staying in the house called the dog house, which is where all the young boys stay; well you can imagine my dads reaction... NO BLOODY WAY ;p
ALSO: have my uncle's 21st coming up in two weeks :) we've polished off his yard glass, sort of scary considering that im next in line to do the yardie... its our family tradition so we will see :S all of our family apart from my nana is flying up for it; so its also a great big family reunion & you need to understand that when my family get together its nothing but pranks, laughter, good food, loads of bullshit & smiles. soo bring it on i say ! hopefully my family loves it soo much that they move up here would jus make life so much more better.
AND: i also had my best mate from auzz come up and stay a week with me Georgia Alice Te Rangi Whakapunia Bush :) which you could imagine was jus laughter the whole time! im sure mum was tempted to buy earmuffs haha, but it was great have bolo up here; showed me who true friends really are & her family also invited me to bali in September which im still really thinking about its just the money thing that gets in the way of every great plan ! like usual!
anyways i best be off that was my quick blog; i promise to try and write more! i shall make it a goal :)
anyways my parents have been telling me about reality; and to be really honest im scared of it. what if i fail? what if i dissapoint?
im scared that i will head back home & things are not like i planned. and also i have bugger all money saved and there is no excuse for that as i get paid well and have nothing to spend it on & what makes it worst is my parents pay for everything :S
- so for now the idea is to stay in the land of money & get myself set up soo that i can do anything i wish with my life.
- i also feel like a really crappy friend for not keeping to my word but how do you tell someone that your just not ready to move away from everybody you love.
NEXT:
i woke up saturday morning to the most worst txt; my closest kuszhin Chancie had been put in hospital with a inflamed heart & was haveing difficulty breathing!!! its the worst thing when your miles away, chancie is like my other half; in a soul connection soo that really put a grey cloud on my mood, but the up news is if he wants he can go to the canterbury bulldogs in sydney; in the start of november if he wants!!!!!! so had a long talk to him about that :) & if he does ill be goin to sydney at least once every two months which is sooo exciting! until i found out that i will be staying in the house called the dog house, which is where all the young boys stay; well you can imagine my dads reaction... NO BLOODY WAY ;p
ALSO: have my uncle's 21st coming up in two weeks :) we've polished off his yard glass, sort of scary considering that im next in line to do the yardie... its our family tradition so we will see :S all of our family apart from my nana is flying up for it; so its also a great big family reunion & you need to understand that when my family get together its nothing but pranks, laughter, good food, loads of bullshit & smiles. soo bring it on i say ! hopefully my family loves it soo much that they move up here would jus make life so much more better.
AND: i also had my best mate from auzz come up and stay a week with me Georgia Alice Te Rangi Whakapunia Bush :) which you could imagine was jus laughter the whole time! im sure mum was tempted to buy earmuffs haha, but it was great have bolo up here; showed me who true friends really are & her family also invited me to bali in September which im still really thinking about its just the money thing that gets in the way of every great plan ! like usual!
Friday, February 18, 2011
gumboots
the little things that made home;
wearing gumboots, friendly waves, crashing on someones couch, camping all summer, 4day parties, hunting, zigzags, scartched cds, straight spirits, knocked over road signs, keys left in the car, booking up, 10 dollar beer, under agers, dogs on the back of the truck, gravel roads, beaching it, seshs at the lake, guitar sessions, sunsets, locals only, friends from way back, jeans and jandals, people on the back of trucks, full cars, running on empty, cuppas, knowing everybody & all the little things that make it the best place on earth ...
REKOHU.pride
wearing gumboots, friendly waves, crashing on someones couch, camping all summer, 4day parties, hunting, zigzags, scartched cds, straight spirits, knocked over road signs, keys left in the car, booking up, 10 dollar beer, under agers, dogs on the back of the truck, gravel roads, beaching it, seshs at the lake, guitar sessions, sunsets, locals only, friends from way back, jeans and jandals, people on the back of trucks, full cars, running on empty, cuppas, knowing everybody & all the little things that make it the best place on earth ...
REKOHU.pride
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Home home home
Soo as you might remember i was due too go home for this long 2 month holiday, that i was just dreading from the start. As soon as i got home i looked around with lost eyes. All that went through my head was why did i miss this place so much? As time went by the island slowly grew on me; maybe it was the way that you got the friendly wave when you drove past, the way that everyone remembered me & i could just be myself, the way i could go out and know that somebody was always looking after me! It slowly took my attention that home will forever be the place in my heart, and although i desperatly never wanted too leave perth. Chathams has taken another a big chunk of my heart and i never wanted to leave! I would give anything to be back home maybe end of the year ? We'll see how it goes ...
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