the big bamn !

Soo a year and a half ago i moved too the big city of Perth, and bein honest at the start i would have given anything to go home !
but ive given it time & Perth has dare i say it, become apart of who i am today.
Soo i love liven here & all my new great friends that ive made. But my mum has recently found out that she has had a job offer in karratha now this place is about 16 hours from perth!!!
now i wish all the best for my mum but come on ! 16 hours & did i mention its like a bloody dessert ! red sand!
nah i just cant cope with that !
soo if she gets the job im goin to hopefully talk to my aunty & uncle and hopefully move in & live with them
sooo fingerscrossed as i dont want to be living on mars !

if you cant beat em. join em !

soo i pretty much have given up on school. i hate every second of it ! & do anything to get the day off ! i only love going there to see all my friends & chill with them...
if i quit school then i have to pay rent to live with my mum & i need a full time job & will most probably never get a proper job or anything !
i neeed to find a way so that i can fully enjoy going to school and stop hating it so much !
so ive decided to finish out the year & hopefuly pass year 11 then next year do 3 days school & 2 days working then i can make me some money & pass yr 12 !
also at the end of this year im heading back too nz & the chatham islands for 2 months....
now im a country girl by heart & city girl  by choice & dont get me wrong i love evrything about going home & evryone that i will get too see ! but 2 months will most probably drive me totally nuttz !!!
but my good ol mate heidi has been doin the thing a friend does & guilt trips me in sayin i wont get to see em all for another year & blah blah soo i8m goin too stick out the 2 months ! soo wish me luck on the island of no civilisation !
heidz you have found a way once again too ware me down & per pressure me LOL
if you cant beat em why the hell not join em ayee?
fingers crossed i dont go mental !

simple (L)

Heidi !
dudee wher do i start ?
first i jus wana thank you soo much ! forr being ther for me when my nana passed :'( yuu really wer the reason i could keep going, i nevr evr got too tell you thanks ! & probably will nevr have the right time or placee but i jus neeed you to know that i was soo glad too have someone likee you i could cry on, & understand how i felt with out haven too speak...
your just an awesome chicky aye heids ! even though people cant have us in the same room for too long because we think its a great time too laugh & annoy evryone !
your like my sister i never hadd ! the one who i can turn too & tell you my problems soo you can tell me the advice, slap me & tell me too stop bein a egg & gett on with it ! your the ying too my yang !
we can jus soo easily cruize through life with no worries, & i could easily do it with you as one of my best friends...
s i m p l e as that matey !
we are oneee... ;)
we are one you and i, like the earth under the sky one family under the sun ;)
cheeers matee ! your really an awesomee person ayee & i thank godd that yuur my frend

x

time may pass, people change, but memories are forever...

i still remeber running home after fridays too ring you up too come and stay at mine.
i remember always wanting too stay at trishas with you :) & all the best times we would have! i remember all the talks we hadd about how we would forevr be best friends & no matter what always keeep in touch.
well 16 years later babes & not one fight ! still best friends & maybe we are islands away but i think we can pull through..
i will forever be that person who you never have a problem telling anything too, the one who you know you could call at one am becoz i would listen to evry word no matter how tired i am, the one who would drop anything thing too help you out, the one who is proud too say i am your friend...

Shenelle Marie Fraser; your all of those things
x

new lifee; new friends; moving on...

i have lived in perth for over a year.
& although i love every second of it, there are times when all i want to do is go home see all my friends & my nan & grandad.
but every time i get the erge to go i think of all these opportuintys over here & how much of a better life i am having, all the friends i have made, all the memorys that have been created & how i have accomplished soo much more than i ever would have on the chathams.
in a second i would go back home; to go back too cold weather, expensive things, the same dramas & same shit different day.!
so forr now im gonna soak up the sunn, party hard & livee my lifeee

:)

3 years young;

sooo my baby brother has finally turned the big 3 !
& as any goood sister i walk in to the lounge on the morning of his birthday and say happy birthday my baby; with his big blue eyes & long eyelashes he loooks at me & says;
"shut up tammin dont talk to mee"
yes my 3 year old brother !
i remeber wehn he was only learnin too walk from his first breath of air.now i have a little shit for my baby brother!
but no matter wher life takes him i will fight for him anyday, our veins share the same bloood baby & always will
sissy loveees yuu & lesty
xx

a little piece of my heart

Shenelle, Heidi, Cheyenne, Porsha;

wher to start wit these wonderfull fwends.?
honestly you guys keeep me outta trouble, even though im only in it because yous put me in it.
i miss the
-late night talks
-cruizing on the Chathams
-gossip sessions
-beach times
-laughin till we got sore stomachs or were told too shutup
-everyone saying oh no when we walked in because they knew we would not shutup
-being part of each others family
& this great bond we share.
i will forever be gratefull for these memories/moments.
that turned from mornings into nights, likes to lovee, and friends to family.
thats what you girls are to me... my family, my friends, my amego`s, my other halfs.
i would give it all to go back to us being together being totall eggs! laughing our worries away..
but time passes, we grow up, our worries turn into reality and memories are slowly forgotten.
but i have this feeeling that our friendship will last on forever! no matter how hard we try to forget it. yous have ingraved the memories into my heart and as hard as i try i know yous will never let me forget how much i need yous to be apart of my life & my future...

i dont think you`s understand what yous actually mean to me....

badd report, angry parents

well im usually this A grade student. But  alot has changed since ive moved over too perth ive gotten jus a little bit slack.
soo today i get my report card & i have gotten a E in Politics a D in history ( my favourite subject) & the rest Cs !
soo that put me in the not happy list!
after getting threatned too be sent back to my dad, yelled at & much much more i have been give the pick up your socks talk or im gone :S
soo term 3 is all about trying too get back in the goood books.
soo wish me luck as i neeed it more than anything right now.
keeep reading for what happens next

like mother like daughter...

well many people say that me & my mother are exactly alike, we look alike, speak the same, think the same & have no problem speakin our mind.
and i honestly takee that as a compliment, shes jus this amazing women my mumm been through heaps, but nothing evr gettz in the way for how she provides for us kidds.
i know ive written a blog about mum befor but i can nevr put in the right words waht she does for me & my family & nevr think i will live long enough too tell her or find the right words or time...
so forr now i jus wanna say that she is the woman i will always loook up too in my life & no matter waht happens i will forver be proud too call this lady my mother.

lovee yuu forevr & always mum...

samee shit differnt day...

i have come tooo another one of my 'great ideas' thats goes a little along the lines of this...
i have this mind blasting idea & go through wit it then realise waht ive done..
my mum says im consistant but i think im jus a half way planner
sooo anyways back too my plan. ive decided that i might not finish year 12 as i really cant be botherd and sckool is jus plain boring too me now. soo i told my mum this great mind blowinng experience & all i got was once yuu finishh sckoool yuu can payy rent i was like awww wayy too burst my bubble...
but lucky i havee my daddy who said that as long as im studying im rent free
:) sooo my mission for the year is to find sumin too study :) lets hope this plan dont backfire ...

Nelly Fritterbang (:

my first true friend...
babes i maybe oceans away, miles apart, a plane ride away
but say the word & ill be there in a heartbeat for you...
we grew up together as one. more sisters than friends. Memory's with you are all plain as day in my head & my heart and thats becoz all i wanna remember are the good times we shared, the laughs that we had, the smiles that we gave, the storys that we shared, and the best friendship that came out of it.
i miss the late nights stayin up giggling our heads off untill we were told we had 3 seconds too shutup or else.
the times wen we couldnt stop laughin no matter how hard we tried, how no matter how much we tried we never stayed mad at eachother, the sleepovers every friday night, the days in bed with the electric blancket on watching tv, goodie gum drops icecream.
all id really like too say nellz is thank you for this amazing friend ship & all the memory's that are stil to come.

xxtazz

Chance.Anaru.Peni

my cousin, my brother, my bestfriend
-Chance Anaru Peni
thank you soo much for being the best person to me. when i was down, sad, happy, excited. no matter what you were there for me. i love how i can tell you things and no matter what you will never judge me, you just laugh, comfort or tell me i coulda done worse. many see you as a big scary guy, i see you as a person i could trust with my life, my secrets and my soul.
i love it how you are never think you are too cool to help anyone, or too good to come last.
memorys:
- when we thought id would be good idea to go egging on halloween night & ended up running away from a bunch of little kids.
- when we were doing burnies in the car & freak when ever a car came round the corner.
- cooking us pancakes then telling me how much you loved these awesome non stick pans cause they only needed a little wipe.
- burning that pie at nanas and then we couldnt stop laughin about it.
- when we thought it would be a mean as idea to build a extra long straw into the punch bowl so we wouldnt have too keep getting up.
- shoulder bumping each other, until it hurt soo bad (well me anyways)
- making me go for a runn and literally pushing me up the huge hill telling me i had to hurry up or watch out man did i run.
- ringing me up at around 12 at night seeing if i wanted to hang out!
- punching me telling me i had to harden up.
- telling me about all your rugby games & i how the ones that i missed you always seemed to do something just totally amazing.
- being a big teddy bear when i was feeling down.
- protecting me from those who ever tried to hurt me.

-being just the most awesomest cousin any one could have :)

errrrr tradgic kuszhin lovee.. :)

love you chancie boi.

love the moments

i love :
my family, my nanna, chuckin skittles at people in the movies, pressin my face up to the glass to leave the print of my face, lookin at the clouds and useing your imagination too see what it looks like, play fighting with my cousins, having meaning full talks with the "wise" uncles, pulling faces at people who stare at me when they drive past, drawing love hearts on my hand, capping kylie since she is the only one who will skull it with me, hoping too bed with a electric blancket, listenin too uncle ajay play guitar & sing, hugging my dad(pete), going too bed after my nan says "god bless", listenin out for heidis truck too cal into my drive way, all my child hood memorys with nelly, watching tv in my mums bed with nells, tyin my hair up in a bun, comin home to a warm house, smellin my nanas perfume, seeing my auntys & uncles in auckland, me and my dad getting along, takin pictures in the mirror with waikii, when im not pissed at lesty, music blasting, when my mum and dad cuddle, standing with no shoes on at the beach, landing safetly at home, the smell of wood burning, putting on pj`z after a cold day, the feeling you get after havin a runn, finishen my homework, jokin with chance, when me & bai have fights in the end i win, when me & cj goof about, when i play fight billy, biten billy LOL, me & chance driven about, halloween eggin people, you know what i love?
i love my life & the people in it .

arohanui xx

childhood

as i sit here and dodge my homework :P i start too think about what a good childhood i had & how it only feels like yesturday me & my best friend Shenelle were pretending our bikes were cars...
how our imagination was unlimited .! & no body could tell us that our dreams were out of reach or it would take a while untill we finally succeded. now its all about haven a plan not taking life as it comes, and learning to go with the flow. the first question you get asked is what are you goin to do after you finish school ! id rather just pass year 11 & take baby steps. I fell so out of place as many people have these marvellous plans on what university to how much it wil cost, to what they are goin to name their pet dog when they get a flat.
At the moment my priorities are passing year 11, havening funn, gettin fit again, making the most of being carefree, and laughing at all the stupid stuff that has happened in the past so i can carry on with my future.
one day it will come too me, my dream that nobody can stand infront of because it all my heart desires & i would have earned every second of it from all the times i mucked around, but took what i needed from my life lessons .
& thank my mum & dad for helping me discover this dream of mine :) youse are my wall when i have run out of places too lean on ...

xxx

wonderwoman & more...

as im slowly getting older me & mum are getting very close.
im starting too tell her things that i never would have imagined telling her a few years ago. she is my hero for all the things she does for me shes like wonderwoman but better. Mum & I were talking about how i tell her where im goin, lately ive found it soo hard too lie to her soo when im wanna go too partys i tell her straight up where im goin what im doing & who will be there its soo weird im sure she brain washed me =S
soo it has taken me 17 years too built this incredible bond with her & im loven every second of it...

soo for now i just look at my mum & think wow she really is all that !
loveee you mumm
xx

Growing up...

i was laying in bed one night thinking of al the things that we once did as a kid and as we got older it stopped or changed...
like wen you go from saying mummy too mum too mother
when the worst diease you could catch was boy cooties
when your Dad was the only guy you would love
when having a sip of Dads beer was WAY too much
how the worst place was the boys toilet

& it dawned on me how much i had changed how my Dad was no longer the only guy i thought id love how i know could drink more than a sip and how i had grown up over the years...

but i remember the moxt was saying how much i wanted to grow up...

Rekohu, my heart & soul

well i was proudly born & raised on the Chatham Islands i might as well tell you where that is since i know your thinking where is that ?
its 44 south & 145 west off new zealand, its a small island & has the population of around 800 people.
its a place that no matter how much you get annoyed with the fact that it only has one shop, no cellphone reception, expensive stuff & everyone is related to you soo they always tell your parents what you get up too, you will forever call it home .!
me & my family have now moved of the Chathams one year age & came over too the big city of perth :)
although i do honestly miss my home i know it will forevr be there !
one day ill go home & remember all the good things about it but for now im enjoyin the cellphone reception, sunny days, hot boyyz ,and getting away with soo much without my mum & dad finding out :P

- rekohu, my heart & soul.